so im waiting for the realms to be back online so i thought id talk about something i have been researching alot into over the past months, more or less to do with boredom than anything but hey its knowledge right.

as science progresses we are given ass humanity the opportunity to delve into realms that really test our limits of what should or shouldnt be done.

the first that came into this discussion was cloning, or the ability to create life based on cellular recreation of already existing life. the problem that people had wit this is the idealism were taking away the not only the individuality that life carries but were starting to play in gods existence itself. if we are able to constantly force create life by test tubes and science, procreation, the ultimate gift of humanity, would become entirely replaceable. so where do we stop cloning then, where does it being, the understanding of life is crucial to our movement forward. cloning for the use of replacing limbs or organs is understandable, it is after all a majority of mans fault that those are being hurt in the first place, so it is ideal that is ok to fix what we destroy. but look at it further, a mother wants a son in one perfect way, she wants the one pattern she believes is completely acceptable, and science could eventually take it further with the genetics of the mind taking away lets say genealogical patterns of turning out gay, or retardation, or mental illnesses. then this becomes almost a debate of genocide and oppression in and of itself. the wrong people could absolutely destroy the diversity that drives our world, and over time, we would become nothing but the man next to us. therefore cloning which gives life, i believe would ultimately take away its beauty.

another small subject of this would be what russian scientists did a few years back. giving life back to the already dead. the scientists actually found a way to recreate cells in 7 dogs that died over 30 minutes prior to the injection. if we are able to actually re-sustain life, are we then completely capable of immortality, could we stop it at that, in conjunction with cloning, would life ever cease its current rate, would we see a newer form of ourselves, or like Aeon Flux would the same existences be repeated over and over, void of real life passion and fear and emotion, tell me how its possible to live when you know its never going to end.

the final disturbance im having with us playing this god role, is the Hydron collider, aka the atom smasher. This has been a rather heated topic lately, and iv been following the subject since the first test. For those of you who dont know the collider is a giant machine which forcibly smashes particles together so fast that it creates such a powerful pool of energy. the purpose of the hydron collider is to recreate the big bang, a theoretical start to all life and existence as we know it. the concept bases itself on random energy smashing together out of a nothing existence, and eventually leading to what we see today, it was the start of everything. the problem i have personally with this is the imminent repercussions of having this amount of power in our hands. the collider has one big warning attached to it, WARNING: May Cause Black Holes, sorry but thats a BIG fukin problem. imagine it, a black hole right here where we all are, hmmmm, problem? the theory is that if this happens the black hole will become sustainable and meld down into the core of the earth where it would then destroy all life as we see today. so on that offshoot chance, what do we do, and even if we did manage to recreate the big bang...what are we gona do with it. theres limitless possbilities for something like this, alt realities, a planet within a planet, a giant restart button on life. the last one troubles me the most, becuase if that is possible, then, perhaps were not really the first to have done this, what if the giant reset button has already been pushed, and here we are in the loop (hmmmmm construct discussion anyone). it doesnt stop at the end, if it begins then, can we create planets, just a ton of them all over the universe, and then, eventually we would run out of room and probably destroy the eco system of the universe, we are so fucked its ridiculous. of course its funny youv got religious nuts all over thinking they are being attacked by this collider...sigh...who wins is beyond me

final thought: if in life we are given the opportunity to play god if even for a minute, are we capable of handeling the job, are we capable of understanding every aspect of the job, are we powerful enough to control it...just becuase you are handed the weapon, doesnt not mean you have to activate it...if we did...there would be no life left to activate anything...

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In Hands

Lest we the pawns in the game of chess go too far
The board would crumble beneath the skies marked in stars

Lest we choose to meddle in gods powerful hand
In an attempt to revert the hourglass sand

Be it may that our eyes choose to point blame
And try and shirk our guilty and flee from shame

Point the blame and judge the angels high
No matter the ending we are playing in deadly skies

We choose our path we choose our fate
All in search of the truth behind a locked gate

So

I have decided I am now doing commission shirts

If you would like one please PM me and we can discuss prices varying on design and level of customization

Please keep in mind no two shirts will be alike...they are all unique but will all retain featrures of some of my signature art styles

Afflicted is now in business

i think that a list really puts life into perspective when we really need it....so here is the start of my list ill keep updating it

100 Things to Do Before I Die

1.) Kiss in the rain and with love in my heart
2.) Fight for my friends or family against all odds
3.) Grow a Fu-Man-Chu
4.) Redeem myself from a terrible wrong
5.) Survive in a forest with just myself
6.) Make Videogame
7.) Get over my fear of heights and sky dive
8.) Get a sleeve done on my right arm
9.) Design someone elses tattoo that means everything to them
10.) Crash a Wedding
11.) Drive so fast i look like a blur
12.) Punch a bee in the face
13.) Get married
14.) Be the best father in the world
15.) Beat off a burglar
16.) Save the day
17.) Successfully play in the stock market
18.) Find out what is really under a diglett
19.) Speak my mind publicly
20.) Win an award that means something to me
21.) Beat Mikey P. in a 1v1 in WOW
22.) Record a song
23.) Write a lyrically powerful poem and have someone famous sing it
24.) Hold her and never let her go
25.) Have one of those epic slow movement moments
26.) Kiss on the beach of Miami
27.) Get a tattoo from Kat Von Dee
28.) Get a tattoo from Ami
29.) Have an epic vegas night
30.) See The Crystal Method
31.) See Daniel Tosh
32.) Visit a less fortunate country and help them out
33.) Re visit Greece my new home
34.) Go to Italy and feel the real history
35.) Go to every location in the movie of National Treasure and create a treasure map
36.) Follow the clues in the Da Vinci Code while wearing a Sherlock Holmes trench coat
37.) Have a light saber fight in the mall
38.) Carry someone through a fight
39.) Have a one night stand simply so in the middle of it i can say btw i have aids
40.) Rick Roll my work
41.) Be homeless on the street for a day to really know what its like
42.) Strike in front the White House
43.) Make my own alcoholic drink that everyone loves
44.) Sit down with someone down and out and have a real life conversation
45.) Grab life by the horns and say your not fuckin with me at the top of my lungs atop a building
46.) Drift til i have no tires
47.) Sit down with a KKK member and unbiasly have a debate with them
48.) Prove that ghost hunters are fukin retarded
49.) Sit on the edge of a cliff overlooking an ocean with a single tree in a grassy open field with no life around me
50.) Truly befriend a gay guy simply to understand their side of a long story




UPDATE

This is the real list

1.) Change the perspectives of religion for a lot of people, make them see how religion has been lost entirely to the eyes of the masses. That religion is not about churches and money and politics, and making it bigger, and better looking. That religion lies in the heart and in the soul rather than your wallet.

2.) Build a city on rock and roll

3.) Be a father who gives everything to his son, make a world so great for him that he doesnt have to see things that i did, to give him a future and happiness and someone to always look upon in the hour of need. To be a father like mine where when he is older he still sees me as a hero.

4.) Punch a bee in the face.

5.) Sit down with the leader of the current KKK clan and actually legitamteyl have an open debate and see his side and try and open his mind with no bias or anger in my heart towards the actions of their cult throughout the years.

6.) Grow a fu man chu

7.) Cover my arm and back in beautiful art that depicts history of mine in such a way that is something more than just a tattoo, it becomes a mural of my soul.

8.) Find out what really is under a diglett.

9.) Influentially change someones life who is going down in a spiral leading to their death. Ultimately be there for them in such a way as to re kindle their faith in themselves, and become the reason that they live on.

10.) Sky dive with my father

11.) Re create the xbox commercial of using imaginary guns in a mall and getting everyone in on it. Except its not guns its light sabers and force powers and basically everyone is running around pretending to own people, EPIC.

12.) Fight for something i believe in so passionately as to raise a revolution in minds everywhere.

13.) Work on the Capcom team to produce a Resident Evil videogame becuase they are the ones who got me into gaming in the first place.

14.) Epicly own Vegas with Daniel Kraft in our bright blue and orange tuxes.

15.) Design clothing for affliction.

16.) Design an album artwork for some huge artist simply so i can go to the launch party and hang with the most beautiful women ever...and walk into it with a gorgeous entourage of women

17.) Go back to Europe and see all of Italy, and revisit Greece becuase it is my home away from home.

18.) Change perspective on art, since its modern day and time its relatively lost the true meaning of good art.

19.) Catch em all.

20.) Actually involve myself into the political system when i am older, and go in without means of corruption and make my stand to change the system from the BS that it is today, becuase we the country need a change, once and for all. (pending if i still live here)

21.) Spend a year in a less fortunate war stricken zone to change and influence the poverse life of people i dont know, and become a better person by understanding the true meaning of being humane.

22.) Attend burning man

23.) Get into a huge fight and have to carry a friend through the fight and make it out without being hurt in any way, just so i can say i did it.

24.) Write a lyrically powerful poem or song and actually have it recorded by some huge artist into a song just so i can hear my words become something even more.

25.) Love unconditionally.

Anthony Buell

cannot stop smiling...isnt that creepy, most of you are more than likely expecting some kind of rant or otherwise bitch fest about my life well hahahaha....

So since senior ball things have been going rather well, and i have been rather happy

Vengeance is finally being served...or atleast i hope it is...i tihnk i found the person who stole my iTouch and ITS ON...i wont hurt him i promised i wouldnt...

Also my ex guild leader in WOW joined my new guild today and basically everyone shit on his face it was absolutely hilarious becuase hes a total and utter douchebag...so it made my day haha

finally made my move on a girl and things couldnt be better in that sense so yay...were actually off to see ironman tomorow isnt that exciting...third time seeing it...im going to drag her to a movie marathon though becuase she has not seen gofather scarface boondock saints 300 fight club van hesling hellboy....i mean come on...who could live without such great masterpieces

but anyway...if anyone has a request piece for a poem they would like me to write...i would more than be happy to write such a piece for you

have a good day DA

So with alot plaguing my already unstable mind, times seem to be changing either for teh worst or for the better i havnt quite decided which yet.

First off, lately i have been going through a bit of company change, friends, and who i have decided to really even trust. With the loss of a close friend, and the gain of a bunch of good ones, things have been easier in that sense. Sure jessie and pattie dont talk to me anymore and as much as that kind of hurt me id have to say i have to move forth, and if someone either cant accept my apology or apologize to me after they were a cruel bitch, well then, im gona give you the ol southern salute and fare thee well. To the new ones, i have found of course new friendships and relations, but there is still a small twinge if distrust inside of me, and its been really bothering me how my paranoia has overwhelmed my judgement. I really am apologetic to not letting people in but why should i anymore when alls thats happened is people stomping right on top of me, well i say fuck that.

And DA i must actually ask advice. A girl who i used to be so close to and would have dated her had my ex not gotten in the way, everything about her was perfect and then bam. Well shes still in contact with me and says all this shit and its like god just let it be. I cant seem to just turn her away becuase i fought for the relationship when my ex got in the way but she just sat there and took it until everything was over. Well i want ask someone atleast to get to know them more, but first off im terrible around women, second off i seem to not even be able to speak around them let alone coherently ask them a question, yes i have nerve issues leave me alone, but i really think before i do i need to solve this predicament with this girl, any ideas.

So time is coming to a close here in Granite Bay permanently, once im done here i beleive i will never return, i have no reason to, no home here, no real tangible friends minus one or two. They would probably be gone before i got back anyway. But i mean dont get me wrong there are some great memories here and there are still alot of people im going to miss, but, god damn get me the hell out of here. Its going to be hard adjusting to it...and any of you in college, how did you get over that like does it stil get at you, it jsut seems like its going to be weird adjusting to a whole new way of life.

So as time to a close, where are my answers, who can righteously state them and solve the things that plague me...perhaps unknown...maybe questions themselves are never meant to be answered, rather, continuously questioned so that in pursuit of an intangible answer we find both more answers as well as problems.

anyway, rant over have a nice day

oh and art updates coming soon, iv been putting up a few new photoshop works that i have pushed out recently in an effort to gain some ground in the program

- anthony

p.s have you ever wondered why in a dream you can touch a falling sky